To my girls. If I could message them.

  • To my girls. If I could message them.

    Posted by cade on June 19, 2024 at 9:20 pm

    What I would say If I could. Maybe you will find these. I can not wait to hold each of you in my arms again. I am always here. I think about you each every day. I know you all love me, not one bit worried, never think that. You are my daughters for goodness sake. I would die for each of you, maybe I am now :), stupid skin infection.

    Naw, Im getting back to myself. Lifting, moving always planning for you all. You can pray about the infection. It is getting concerning. I think I have found a better treatment. I will keep my daily journal updated with one to two sentence general reports on that and your Nana. I am going to keep my journal puplic. Just in case. S, C, M, N, J. Dad loves you.

    cade replied 2 weeks, 3 days ago 1 Member · 8 Replies
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  • cade

    Organizer
    June 22, 2024 at 5:31 pm
    67 Pups

    I heard you two littles were playing volleyball. It may be old news, but its new to me. Believe me, if I was allowed I would be at every game. I would be your best cheerleader. And oh my, we would all three practice together. These days are coming. I can’t wait to see you again. I sure love you girls. You will see this and more one day. Its mission behind every letter typed and video uploaded here. After that its to duplicate any success with any fathers that need this as well. Miss Marie, have a baby. Miss Larue, upload a song some where, I want to hear your pretty voice. Miss LL, bring that grandson by whenever you like. I’ll cook you both steak. I miss you both.

  • cade

    Organizer
    June 24, 2024 at 1:10 am
    67 Pups

    The day that restraining order hit. I left a note for each of you littles. They were under your pillow. It said not to worry. It said God would work it out and we had each other. I think I am close. Geesh, I did not know he had this long in mind. Your brother and I both for so long kept saying mom would wake up. I did not think this would go on so long. I love you two. If you kept those notes, they were on paper from your note book, keep them. We will read them together soon. Shoot, I hate tears on my keyboard, finger tips slip and typos galore. I can see us playing in your room. God, a year plus, your voices. Silent. I am working on the rest of those letters. Soon. Night “Pink Bottoms & A Teal Top”, saw a picture. You are a beautiful young girl now. And you, my little JW, so proud of you. Volley Ball! Night. -Super hug. -Dad

  • cade

    Organizer
    June 24, 2024 at 9:30 am
    67 Pups

    Yup, thinking of you all you daughters. Ya know, you turned out fabulous. Course you and us have our precious flaws. Overall you all impress me. Cant wait for God to fix us, mend us. Sooth the hurts and pull out the lies. We all are a mess at times. I know this about you all. I am still here, does not matter what mistakes you make. I am Dad, unconditionaly. It was my desire. Each one of you were planned. And miss “don’t call me Jose” were a delightful excuse to ride without a helmet while entertaining the happy thought, “what if YOUhappened?” And you did to our delight! Till we hug again. -Dad

  • cade

    Organizer
    June 24, 2024 at 11:02 pm
    67 Pups

    Wish you were both snuggled up on the couch with me and I later I got to tuck you in at night. Like I have all your sisters before you. Just is so wrong! It ok. Whether we see eachother again in short or long time. Its Gods plan, good is going to come from this. I love you girls. Ask you olders sisters about the peace and grace ritual they both had to have done before the could sleep. I tucked them in every night. Good memories. We will make more. -Night

  • cade

    Organizer
    June 27, 2024 at 2:22 am
    67 Pups

    Tucked you all in in my mind. I am glad and thankful for each of you. I smile when you fly back and forth cross the shadow curtain in my mind. Night.

  • cade

    Organizer
    June 28, 2024 at 11:07 pm
    67 Pups

    Your all on my mind. I sure love you all. Saw an old family picture. All smiles. Goodnight. Peace & Grace N Your Hearts.

  • cade

    Organizer
    June 29, 2024 at 8:38 am
    67 Pups

    Imprinted. I remeber the day my 18 year old daughter C Bear came rushing into the kitchen. She is the one who walks and talks with her hands like me the most. Her eyes, big bright, yet dark and piercing, held mine. She said this. “Dad! You have to stop drinking coffee instead of water first thing in the morning.” She pushed a big cup of ice water twoards me as she finished her thought. I had raised my coffee mug up to my face when she had interupted, it was paused there, frozen. I stuck between one mug and another, as I took in her data download. I miss her btw.
    I drank water slowley, keeping an eye on her as she explained all the benifiets of “water first , your body must have it to wake up, not coffee…” Within a minute of drinking half the glass, I concluded she was right. To this day, happened this morning. I forgot the water.

    Now to me, it is peculiar not that I still forget, but when I remember. It is ALWAYS two inches from my chin, in upward motion. I can feel the warmth of the pipping steam, the smell of fresh roasted. My lips part, my sleepy body dependant on that caffiene thrills and then… C Bear is here! Walking right in, I see the large glass of ice water, I feel the same inspiration she had that morning, I hear all her words darting back and forth and she convinces me, everytime. This one moment has most likley changed my rest of life health for, ya the rest of my days, assuming she continues to interupt me before I sin every morning. She will, she has been faithful.

    Cbear, there is so much here about you and I, intrajects, attachments omg if you could only see. It would maybe answer some questions that keep you away. I wish you to see so I can love and be loved by you. This though is not my capability, impossible. This belongs to God. Until he moves I wait in movement. In peace. I love you. Chin up. Things change. -Dad

  • cade

    Organizer
    July 3, 2024 at 9:38 am
    67 Pups

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